The thought crossed my mind to message you but then I realized that I don’t want to give you any ammo.
I think this kind of speaks for itself but of course I’m gonna go in deeper and chat about the whole thing π For starters, I meant message in two ways: What I am trying to portray to you and will explain in more detail below and the type that can be sent through text on a phone…I’m just confusing things by explaining this but there is method to my madness because I like to take notice of how different the two are π«
Recently after a virtual run-in with a particular person, I was feeling not so much upset in the end but more so motivated to look after my best interests and this grew from that. I wanted to share it here so as to acknowledge the fact that throughout isolation we are met with these feelings towards people whose attitudes have taken a turn for the worst when they find it hard to deal with how everything has changed.
They take it out on others and even though you know that it’s because they are finding it tough and that they don’t mean it personally it still hurts. And this hurt is intensified by the fact that you care about them and know that deep down they do care about you too.
They try to put you in your place when it sounds like you’re doing well even though you’re not finding it easy either and they know this because who is? I won’t give up on them because now would be the worst possible time to do that when they clearly need people who care about them the most. I’m just going to choose what I say wisely and it’s painful in itself to admit that as then I’m not being 100% transparent with them through fear of it later being thrown back in my face but whatever works.
Everyone is reacting to this in different ways but we should all meet on a solid ground and remember to be kind throughout this whole situation and thereafter or else what have we really learned from it at all? β¨
Thank you for reading! π There’s nothing like a mini rant to help you see things more clearly π Do you have a story about a conflicting emotion to suit the amount of words in your age like this? I’d love to hear it! (I basically just chose my age because that’s what it added up to π€·π). Take care and I hope you’re well and having a lovely day β€οΈ
Ahh loved this, it was so well written!! β€οΈ
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Thank you very much! πππ
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Hi Elsie! I have nominated you for the Blogger Recognition Award. You may or may not do it, itβs totally up to you! β€οΈ Hereβs the link if you wanna check it out: https://jirahmerizz.wordpress.com/2020/04/29/blogger-recognition-award-2/ Stay safe! β€οΈ
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Thank you so much Jirah!! Really appreciate that β€οΈβ€οΈ
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loved this post β really made me think. especially the 21 words haha. i totally interpreted in a different way to your explanation btw!
can relate a lot cause iβve been debating whether to wish certain people happy birthdays or pop up asking how they are but then came to the conclusion as much as it comes from a place of good vibes, i donβt need to be providing ammo especially when they left or drifted or made it clear they wanna cut ties.
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Ahh thank you! π That’s so cool you saw it in another way β¨ Sounds like you’re making the best decision if you know your kindness could be used against you later on πππ
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Awww I love this! xx
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Thank you very much! πβ€οΈ
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