What’s wrong?

Elsie LMC

Why can’t I be okay when I’m quiet?

Not down because I’m opposite

Of how you like to see me act?

Because sometimes that’s all it is

An act.

Well maybe

When I’m talking

And laughing

And smiling

I’m not okay.

Maybe the quiet is what I need

What makes me happy

From time to time

What makes me smile.

It doesn’t have to mean something’s wrong

I could hide behind a smile

Pain hides behind both ends.

I know I can be sad in silence too

But my quietness is never fake

The reasons can be hard to read.

It’s just a rest from the pretence.

You say I have a right to be down

Sending me mixed emotions

It makes me sink deeper into what you don’t want.

Hi everyone! How are you today? I wrote this when I was feeling upset after a bout of being asked “what’s wrong?” when nothing was wrong. On the majority of these occasions I would feel unwell and I do go quiet when I feel sick but when I answer with “nothing I just don’t feel well” the reply is “oh you look down”…..of course I bloody look down! I don’t feel well! 😂 Sometimes I don’t have the energy to put on a front when I’m in pain and it’s taken in a way that upsets me because I may look down but I’m not (if you get what I’m saying? 😂) I’m trying to keep in a positive attitude whilst my pain is uncontrollable but I get reminded that I don’t look sick I look sad which is sometimes the case and it’s like the people who ask rejoice when I answer with “yes I feel down” as it’s something that can almost be handled or understood unlike my pain. I don’t know if I’m making any sense but I feel better for writing this 😊

Thank you for reading! 😉💗 Have a lovely day!

This is a scheduled post as I am on holiday which you can read more about HERE

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  1. Yes I can totally relate!! Although I’ve been on both sides of that 😬 I can remember myself asking someone what’s wrong before immediately re,entering how much it annoys me 😂
    ~ HAVE A GREAT HOLIDAY!!
    Also how does scheduling work? Does it automatically post at the time you set???

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    2. Same, I have caught myself asking people who have told me this is how they feel too. Thank you so much!! Am having a lot of fun, incredibly tired but loving it so far. The scheduled posts never go up exactly on time, they go up like 10/15 minutes after. I know that they are supposed to be alerted by someone visiting your site but what if no one was to visit and the post would never go up 😂 I’ve just taken the risk and they all seem to go up a little after the time they say they will 💗

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      2. It’s annoying, I don’t get why WordPress say they have to be alerted. It surely can’t be that difficult for them to just make it go up at the time u set. I’m not sure but I think my mum has been going on for me to make them go up 😂 she said she would when she remembers so maybe that’s why mine have been going up. Hope u can find a way to make it work soon, or maybe WordPress will come up with an update for it 💗

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  3. So true girly ugh. I feel like if I’m happy and full of energy I’m ignored around certain people and if I’m quiet and stay with myself people blame me for being too introverted and unhappy. I honestly just like being quiet and having me time a lot, with the exception of a couple persons I just don’t like being around others sometimes when its like this.

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    1. Thank you so much!! Yes! I agree that sometimes you feel like you can’t win and some people will always find something to call u out on. Same I prefer being alone or with family/close friends as I am less likely to be treated in this way. Hope you’re having a lovely day 💗

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  4. I’m pretty quiet most of the time, and the amount of times I’ve been asked “what’s wrong” or “are you OK?” is funny. Annoying, too. People expect us to act in a certain way in certain situations because it’s the “normal” way to act, or it’s how THEY would act 🙄 I do hope you’re doing OK though 😄💜

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    1. Thank you so much!! Yeah I’m fine thanks am feeling a bit down but just thinking it’s tiredness as have had a busy couple of days. It’s annoying how we feel like we should put on a front half the time, if only to avoid being asked “what’s wrong?”. Hope you’re having a lovely day 💗

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